Nick, spelled N-Eye-C-K

Just got a new command from the Man Upstairs. Apparently he wants me to mess with my sector's Commander's newest Handmaiden... AGAIN. He always wants to make the Commanders' Handmaidens crack and he usually does, but Offred, Offred is different, it seems like she wants to be free, she wants to rebel against our better world, but she won't or she can't. She's one of the most perfect handmaidens that's from the Darker Age, but she's also one of the Handmaidens with the most meaning to escape. Unless she truly doesn't care about her family, her husband (maybe just boyfriend, not sure), and her daughter, cute kid too takes after her mother I suppose. I shouldn't worry about that though that's later tonight. Ugh then there's that awkward Ceremony after that. Out of all the drastic changes that came from Gilead, that one is the most unsettling things. Sex is supposed to be a pleasurable and comforting experience, not a medical operation. Ugh anyway I got to get ready. Putting on this Guardian uniform, acting all buddy buddy with the other Guardians. Most of those guys make me sick. Most of them are just horndogs, ha, aren't they in the wrong profession. Well I'd better head off to the Commander's house so I'm not late. Now that I'm here I guess I have to think about what I should try this time to push Offred closer to death. I've already winked at her but she just seems to ignore it so I should step up my game. I know! She usually has to just stand there and kneel in the moments leading up to the Ceremony. She can't move, so I could do anything so long as the Commander is there. That's what I'll do and she'll have to freak out or at least crack a little bit.